Mommy & Me

A look into the life of a stay at home mother, and my everyday joys and struggles. Ill talk about being a mom the ups & downs, my struggles with MS, and many other random thoughts :D

A Forgetten Doc Appointment!

So yesteray my boyfriend had a doc appointment! Innocent enough right?? Well it was at 5 pm, come a little past 6 and I still hadnt heard from him I started to worry. So I called his best friend to see if maybe he stopped by there, because its on the way home and he tends to get lost and ends up there! Sy hadnt heard from him so after I called him he started calling Josh and finally got a hold of him. Sy was like dude where have you been, Nikki is really worried about you. Josh responded "Oh Ive been here and there" and Sy was like no really and Josh was like "If I told ya you wouldnt believe me, I was at a doc appointment!" Sy was like "You running around on here?" All of that headache because we couldnt tell anyone he had a docs appointment because...well I dont know why...but he has been like that since Ive met him. And its not even like he goes that often  probably since we have been together (3 years in March) Josh has been to the docs office 10 times tops!!

On another note I slept like shit because I had a dream of Josh cheating on me, and flirting with other girls with me right there!!

In-Laws

OMG thank God the weekend is over! We went down home to spend Friday night with my boyfriends parents, so they could see the baby. They havent seen him since he was about a month old! Anyhow we spent Friday night down there, and it was pretty nice and we set to leave Saterday afternoon :) Well they ended up following us up on SATERDAY because they had to go to the bank on MONDAY. His step father really isnt an issue he just sets there and doesnt say say too much or even do much of anything. His mother on the other hand a freaking crazy bat. When we started dating she was def not normal but I could handle her, then I had the baby and now I cant freaking stand her. She is always telling me how things should be done, what Im doing wrong, how I shouldnt give the baby carrots because his father didnt like them....huh?? Just because Josh didnt like carrots means nothing when it comes to my son. I went to the grocery store Sunday evening just to get away!! I know this much, I will not be spending that much time with them again any time soon, if at all....EVER!

Peeved

My boyfriend, dont get me wrong I love him to death and he means the world to me. However he is driving me crazy, it seems like he is pushing me away and I dont know why. I know he is trying to quit smoking and its really hard on him but the past few days he doesnt kiss me good bye in the morning, he never takes the food I prepare for him for work, and I havent got a kiss good night in over a month without asking for one! Its driving me nuts I shouldnt have to ask for attention from him, and he should have to feel like he has to ask for my attention. I dont get it :(

Baby & Cereal

We have been giving the baby cereal for a few weeks now so its clear that there is no issues there! The docs told me to put cereal in with his formula everytime we feed him, because he is having issues keeping the formula down!! Tonight I decided to mix the cereal in a bowel with bananna. He had cereal once before however it was just plain cereal and I wasnt there for it! OMG he was so excited about this and eat it like crazy :) Im so sure that with the bananna in it, it was the best tasting stuff hed ever had :D

MRI Part #1

So I had my MRI today, it was difficult to say the least! They started the test and I freaked out, it felt like well I dont know but it scared the shit out of me I even started to cry!! They ended up putting a towel over my eyes and it went better. The noises though that mechine makes made me wanna puke to say the least. Then they stopped it to give me a shot which I wasnt expecting so it made me very upset. I guess it will cause any active lessions to light up. Ill get the results in a week or so!!

Nervous

So today I have my MRI..I'm so not looking forward to this! Its kind of scary...they are so freaking noisy and you cant see a damn thing going on around you. However, thats something that I should get use to considering the fact Ive got MS and that is just one of the tests you get the joy of having every so often! Ill be glad when it is over, and I can just hold and cuddle Hunter. Whenever Im upset or hurt just looking at that beautiful face makes everything okay again :D
My last MS appointment went well I guees! I have to start a new med. They said my night sleep study showed nothing, however my day study showed I was mildly sleepy. No shit Sherlock Ive only been trying to tell you this for the last year! But I cant start the new med until the first of next week, my insurance didnt okay the med. So the doc has to write up his notes for the sleep study and submit those to the company and hopefully theyll okay the new med. With this new pill it brings the total of meds I need to take monthly to just under 3000!!

Just Me

Me As Me

My name is Nikki, I am 23 years old getting ready to celebrate my 24th birthday...omg almost half way to being 50 crazy thought!! I have been with my boyfriend for about 2.5 years now, and they have been the best years of my life. We moved in together July 4 2006, and have been living together ever since. We have two cats Abby, and Cuffer which I love...most days!! I love the shows Reba, Tori and Dean, and George Lopez. I love country music, and will listen to other stuff but mostly Im a pure country girl!! I love hanging out with my friends, and camping...swimming....fishing is fun too!

Me As A Mommy

March 12, 2008I become a mother to a beautful baby boy who soon became the light of my life! It is so amazing to me how fast he is growing. He weighed in at 6 lbs 8 ozs and 21 inchs at his birth, last time he was weighed he was 14 lbs and 26 inches long. He is starting to wear a lot of 6 to 9 month clothing. My boyfriend and I are teaching our son baby sign language, he now knows change like nobodies bus!! When ever he wants his diaper changed he lets us know by signing it, and recently he started signing to let us know that his clothes where too wet and he needed to be changed!! He also knows the sign for milk, and he is doing very well with I love you :)

Me As A MS Patient

I was diagnosed in April 07 with MS. That day was the worst and best day of my entire life! I finally had answers to questions I'd been asking for years!! But I didn't know very much about the disease, so the unknown was so scary. I was soon put on Copaxone which helped me to feel much much better :D However in July I had to go off my meds because I found out that I was suprisingly pregnant. The docs told me I should have never even became pregnant between my low thyroid level, and the birth control!! The 9 months I was pregnant and about 2 months afterwards where the best months of my life, not a single symptom...no UTIs, no numbness, no spasms, no confussion, an A+ memory...but soon after it all came back :( I had to give up breast feeding my son due to the meds, which was devisating. I had already gotten use to the the fact that Id probably never be able to afford to go to work, but to turn around and have that shoved in my face with another thing MS has taken away from me was very difficult!

Me As A Daughter & Friend

My childhood was shitty for lack of better words. If it wasnt for my grandmother, God knowns how sane I wouldve turned out! My mother and I cant stand each other, she lives on a far up north, and my dad put his step sons before my sister and I and is now living in Texas. My mother just recently became "Crazy" she didn't come to my baby shower because she made up a story about her dog being pregant and said she was going to have the puppies around the time of the baby shower so she couldnt leave her alone. She wasnt even there when I went into labor, or had my son, hell the bitch didnt even show up at the hospital and didnt see him until he was a week or two old! My dad and I currently get along, but growing up not so much. I hated his "slut" of a wife, and her 3 children. My dad always wanted boys and with her he got 3 just like that leaving us kind of hanging in the wind! Now that I am older we get along, I still feel resentment towards him for trying to replace us with the boys but I just leave it alone. My step mother and I get along now that Ive had my son, my boyfriend says its just because its new, and it will soon wear off...so we will see. My sister is my best friend in the whole world! We do everything together, and she has gotten me through some very difficullt times :D I dont really get along with girls for the most part! The only girl that I love besides my sister is my friend Danny who is seeing my boyfriends best friend Sy! Which Ill talk alot about Im sure :D

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Female - 24 years old
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